It is not a secret
that other women terrify me.
We are always competing in a contest
I don’t understand.
I don’t know how to be beautiful.
I don’t know how to be gentle.
There is a right way to be this gender.
It has been taught to me
since birth. I have failed every class.
being a psychotic and neurotic mess while keeping an aloof, i-don’t-care exterior is a full time job